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{\an8}This programme contains strong
language

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RUSTLING DOWNSTAIRS

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HE SIGHS

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GLASS CLINKING

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HE KNOCKS

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HE GROANS

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Wish I could stay.
Help you set up properly.

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No, this is great.
All I need is your computer.

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Well, the food bank needs you.

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Saturday kitchen at
the church needs you.

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Yeah, and I need money.

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I can lend you money.

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How much do you lend, Muriel?

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What, 200 this week, 200 the next?

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You cook for me, you make my meals.

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I'm saving on microwave dinners
and shop lunches.

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Y'know, I could pay you

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to be my housekeeper.

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I can do this.

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That is painful to watch.

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Will you go away? I'm trying!

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Did you even meet
a computer before you went inside?

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Inside?

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Well, look at you.

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Can I use your phone number?

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Of course. And your email address?

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We will get you
an email address when I come home.

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Well, I can do it. I mean, it's
free, isn't it?

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You just point me in
the right direction.

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Anna, I know you wanna get started

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but this is gonna be harder than
you thought.

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Well, it's better I know how hard
it is quite quickly.

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Let's get the poles in the ground
before we put the tent up.

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I just... I just wanna prove that I
can do this.

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I want to feel like I'm starting.

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You don't need to prove anything.

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You don't need to start anything.
It's just details! We can sort it.

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I'm not living off you.
No.

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You're living with me.
I'll see you later.

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Have fun at work.

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Hope you see Marcus
from obstetrics.

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SHE CHUCKLES

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We were out of hosts.
I fetched some from Father George.

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Pleasant man but terrible dandruff.

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Not good for a priest.

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There were many sins they warned us
of at the seminary.

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Dandruff was a tragic omission.

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You cannot wear black
and moult head skin.

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Um...

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...for your sister.
For her wedding.

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It's a bracelet.

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I didn't know whether it was ugly
or nice.

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I bought it on the off chance
it was nice.

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You bought her a wedding present?

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Oh. No, is that the wrong thing
to have done?

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It is today, isn't it? Look, I like
your sister. She's fun.

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Look, she's having a,
a registry office wedding.

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I know. You were working on the
blessing in here.

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The blessing's just in
the garden, a small party.

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Anyone's welcome.

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No! You should come.

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I should not. I haven't been
invited.

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No-ones been invited.
My sister's terrified of rejection,

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so she doesn't like
to make anything formal.

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Please.

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Look, this wasn't
me trying to...

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Of course. But you will be there.

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3pm. See how the heathens do it.
Wh...

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3pm. I'll be free.

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How's your mum?

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There's a surprise.

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What? Tina's here and you'll never
guess who she's with.

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DAVID: The Lord be with you.

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ALL: And with Your Spirit.

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Lord, we have sinned against You,
Lord have mercy.

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Lord have mercy.

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Show us Your mercy and Your love.

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And grant us Your salvation.

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Let us pray.

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Thank you, Father.

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Hey.

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SHE GIGGLES

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Hello.

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And hello.

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Don't get excited
and thinking you're converting me.

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We've got an appointment at
the hospital in a bit

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and this one thought I might as well
do this before.

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You're very welcome here.

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We've been having visitors every
five minutes,

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sorting out this,
that and the other.

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I don't know who you passed me on
to. How much pressure you put on.

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I'm just pleased it's working out.

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I slightly resent it.

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But I think, it's kind of you.

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She's going to speak in court.

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He wrote to me,
asking for forgiveness.

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Telling me he was gonna kill himself
if I didn't, or if I did.

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Asking for forgiveness.

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What did you do?

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Nothing. He didn't kill himself,
because he's full of shit.

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Oh, and er, I'm not a Catholic.

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HE CHUCKLES
Happy?

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Happy. You?

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You should stop asking how I am.

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You can care about me,
I can't care about you?

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Something like that.

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Can I just say...?
I liked your nun.

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I liked her too.

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So you weren't a dick, then?

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I thought you'd probably been
a dick.

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I don't, if I'm honest,
know what I was.

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If you don't know,
you were probably a dick.

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I think you're great, though.

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But you don't care what I think

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because you were thinking
about her.

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SHE GIGGLES

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Mum, can you wait? I'm pregnant!

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SHE LAUGHS
Mum! You cow.

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OK, I need everybody in the car.

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Very loud.

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Mum, Simon, I need you in the car.

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Molly, why aren't you in
the bloody car?

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It'll be OK. Where are you going?

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You're not wearing that.

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{\an8}Oh, yeah!

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We're gonna be late.

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We're gonna miss our slot
and it's gonna be all your fault.

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I love you.

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Aw, I love your wings.

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Get in the car!

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Oh, OK, OK, OK!

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Thank you.

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What can I get you, love? I just saw
the sign in the window.

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Which sign? I'm looking for work.

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Oh, that's an old sign,
love, sorry.

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You don't know of anybody
else who's...?

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Not right now.

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There's a bit of
a local dip happening.

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Everyone's struggling a bit.

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Leave me your number
and I'll keep an ear out for you.

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Thanks. Uh,
this is my friend Muriel's number.

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Um, I'm just...

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I'm staying with her at
the moment. I'm Anna.

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OK, Anna. Good luck to you.
Thank you.

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Why are we listening to this?
I've done a playlist.

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A song for every year that Susan
and I could've been together

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and weren't together.

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The songs we should've danced to.

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That's crazy. No, it's romantic.
Turn it up!

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MUSIC: World Shut your Mouth
by Julian Cope

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Yay! Whoooo!
I'm getting married.

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Anna. Thanks so much for coming in.

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What sort of work are you
looking for?

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Erm, I'm not sure what
I'm qualified for.

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Catering, I hope.
I can cook and I can clean.

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Er, data entry skills?

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Um, sorry?

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What's your typing speed?

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I don't have one.

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Erm, can you use a computer?

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I can try.

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You haven't filled in the bit
where it says previous work.

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No well, I-I was a nun, uh...

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So I don't really think that counts
as a job.

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I don't... I don't think it is a job.
It's, um...

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...it's more a calling.
Right.

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I mean, I could fill out the CV
section but

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it would just say "nun".
And then nun, and then nun.

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It sounds like a joke, doesn't it?

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Does the way you're saying it.

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Um, have you got
a permanent address?

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I have an address.

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Um, have you got
a National Insurance Number?

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Ah, I remember having one
of those, um, but I could find it.

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Do you have preferred hours?

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No.

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Maybe wanna have
a little think about that.

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Um, childcare needs or...

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N-N-No. I don't have
any kids.

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I was a nun.

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You just, erm,
you don't look like a nun.

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Well, I, uh... I'm not one, any
more.

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PHONE RINGS

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You can't help me, can you?

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We don't really get catering work.

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OK, then.

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What I'd do is get your typing speed
up.

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There's courses you can take online
and, erm,

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come back when you're in
a better place.

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PHONE RINGS

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We're late. Are we late?

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Susan and Simon? Yeah.

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We've got time.

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Morning.

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My name is Sandra and as the Deputy
Superintendent Registrar

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for Bristol, it is my privilege
to welcome you here today.

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I'm joined by my colleague,
Grace, and our interpreter,

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Bella, and we are met in

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a place duly sanctioned according
to law for

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the celebration of marriages
and civil partnerships.

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We're gathered here today for the
joining in matrimony of

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Simon Ian Neave and
Susan Grace Hicks.

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If any person here present knows
of any lawful impediment

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to this marriage,
they should declare it now.

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That's the difficult bit.
It's really easy from here.

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I'm starting with
St Fulgentius, which is,

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"Love, indeed,
is the source of all good things.

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"It's an impregnable defence,
and the way that leads to heaven.

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"He who walks in love can neither go
astray nor be afraid,

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"love guides him, protects him and
brings him to his journey's end."

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And I-I was thinking I could then
explain that what...

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It sounds like Shakespeare.

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You don't mean that as
a compliment, do you?

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What else do you say?
Do you make any jokes?

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It's not a Best Man's speech.
It's a blessing.

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Can you tell them about the time

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when Mum bought home that box of
Milk Tray

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and then I pissed her off,
so she ate them all in her room?

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Oh, yeah, that will really make them
laugh, won't it?

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She ate the whole box. Two layers.

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And then she got really constipated
and really complained about it.

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Oh, bugger it. I can't do this.
It keeps falling down.

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I might be able to help.

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I'm too early. I always am.
A little girl let me in.

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I presume she's related
to at least one of you.

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I'm a dab hand at DIY, surprisingly.

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Hello, I'm Francis. Hi.

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David.

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DOORBELL RINGS

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Dad! Mum.

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Muriel called.
I've brought my own brushes.

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Brushes for what?

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Setting things right.

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Well, I'm not here to paint.
I hate paint.

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And I've got three different shades
of blue,

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so you can choose the one you want.

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And one'll be called Wistful
Dog Breath,

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and the other will be called
Shropshire Bed Crumpet

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and they'll be... Of all things to
be angry about,

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you're angry about paint names?

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Well, I brought the lamp you like

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and a bedspread from your
Auntie Penny.

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Am I missing something?
What's happening here?

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I've got Zac's permission.
We're gonna paint your room.

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I told you, I never liked that we
didn't redo your room at home.

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For a long time, he thought it was
the reason you became a nun.

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"That bloody deer wallpaper".

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So, you're redecorating the room?

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YOUR room,

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and that's the start that matters.
Making a home.

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I've a brush for you.
You can bloody help.

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Working on your blessing?

253
00:20:01,800 --> 00:20:06,719
Oh, erm... Linds... The older
daughter, says I need more jokes.

254
00:20:06,720 --> 00:20:08,080
Ah.

255
00:20:09,480 --> 00:20:11,959
As a younger man, I once got told
off by a priest

256
00:20:11,960 --> 00:20:15,519
for getting too many laughs in
a sermon.

257
00:20:15,520 --> 00:20:18,160
Humour is an underrated quality in
the clergy.

258
00:20:20,920 --> 00:20:22,880
I wondered if, you wouldn't mind...

259
00:20:24,400 --> 00:20:27,559
Would you mind hearing
my confession?

260
00:20:27,560 --> 00:20:29,319
N-Now? Here?

261
00:20:29,320 --> 00:20:31,840
I'd like it. If you have a moment?

262
00:20:53,640 --> 00:20:56,680
I'm not much of what most would
consider a "man".

263
00:20:58,680 --> 00:20:59,760
You are.

264
00:21:01,240 --> 00:21:03,560
I've lived most of my life
with my mother.

265
00:21:05,200 --> 00:21:07,959
I've dedicated myself to God,
her, and my allotment.

266
00:21:07,960 --> 00:21:09,200
In that order.

267
00:21:10,880 --> 00:21:12,479
Didn't know you had an allotment.

268
00:21:12,480 --> 00:21:16,839
Good. You shouldn't.
It's my quiet place.

269
00:21:16,840 --> 00:21:20,999
I don't talk about it to anyone,
well, except Mother.

270
00:21:21,000 --> 00:21:22,119
My point is,

271
00:21:22,120 --> 00:21:24,999
there is no reason why you would
take what advice

272
00:21:25,000 --> 00:21:26,839
I have in any way seriously

273
00:21:26,840 --> 00:21:29,280
and-and it's not advice you are
seeking.

274
00:21:31,400 --> 00:21:32,400
But...

275
00:21:33,440 --> 00:21:35,159
...I am a little older than you.

276
00:21:35,160 --> 00:21:38,879
I've seen and experienced some
aspects in

277
00:21:38,880 --> 00:21:42,759
a little more depth,
and I do care so deeply about you.

278
00:21:42,760 --> 00:21:45,519
You've been a constant in
my prayer.

279
00:21:45,520 --> 00:21:47,840
That's very kind.
I care deeply about you, too.

280
00:21:49,720 --> 00:21:51,399
But, erm,

281
00:21:51,400 --> 00:21:55,279
just to check, is this a
confession?

282
00:21:55,280 --> 00:21:56,520
FRANCIS CHUCKLES

283
00:22:02,480 --> 00:22:04,880
My mother doesn't recognise
me any more.

284
00:22:06,480 --> 00:22:08,719
There are moments when
I half believe she does,

285
00:22:08,720 --> 00:22:09,840
but she doesn't.

286
00:22:12,120 --> 00:22:13,800
Not a kind woman.

287
00:22:15,920 --> 00:22:18,440
Not someone even particularly filled
with love.

288
00:22:19,920 --> 00:22:23,799
I stayed with her because she needed
me after my father's death,

289
00:22:23,800 --> 00:22:25,720
even if she did not think she did.

290
00:22:30,480 --> 00:22:32,959
We should talk of your mother more.

291
00:22:32,960 --> 00:22:38,999
Her dementia in the last six months
has become increasingly cruel.

292
00:22:39,000 --> 00:22:43,399
Violent, you understand,
as some dementias get.

293
00:22:43,400 --> 00:22:45,999
The violence I can cope with.

294
00:22:46,000 --> 00:22:48,400
The words I sometimes find more...

295
00:22:50,080 --> 00:22:53,599
The hidden ways she's thought of me.

296
00:22:53,600 --> 00:22:56,760
She accuses me... she has accused
me...

297
00:22:59,000 --> 00:23:01,199
...of being attracted to her.

298
00:23:01,200 --> 00:23:03,519
She's accused me of watching her in
the bath.

299
00:23:03,520 --> 00:23:06,359
She's an 86-year-old woman,
you understand.

300
00:23:06,360 --> 00:23:08,519
She's accused me of being attracted

301
00:23:08,520 --> 00:23:10,559
to other women who come to
the house,

302
00:23:10,560 --> 00:23:12,919
carers and elderly friends.

303
00:23:12,920 --> 00:23:15,200
She's found lust in my every...

304
00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:18,440
In all of me.

305
00:23:22,280 --> 00:23:25,519
And the only reason I feel able
to repeat these charges is

306
00:23:25,520 --> 00:23:27,800
because there is no truth to them.

307
00:23:32,160 --> 00:23:35,599
But that doesn't mean they aren't
incredibly painful.

308
00:23:35,600 --> 00:23:37,679
I can imagine.

309
00:23:37,680 --> 00:23:41,719
And yet still,
and this is the beauty of His Love,

310
00:23:41,720 --> 00:23:44,959
still I sit on my allotment,
or in church or,

311
00:23:44,960 --> 00:23:46,719
well, anywhere really,

312
00:23:46,720 --> 00:23:51,960
and I pray and I find such love in
my life.

313
00:23:53,440 --> 00:23:59,919
Not from her. No.
I find it in the love I give her.

314
00:23:59,920 --> 00:24:03,919
My love. You understand?
And I do not regret,

315
00:24:03,920 --> 00:24:06,839
and this is important to me
and it's true,

316
00:24:06,840 --> 00:24:10,599
I do not regret
a single second I spent with her.

317
00:24:10,600 --> 00:24:15,640
I do not regret my life
because it is a love to this day.

318
00:24:19,480 --> 00:24:22,960
It is a life filled with
a true love.

319
00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:30,120
You're a good man.

320
00:24:32,560 --> 00:24:35,320
You're missing the point I'm trying
to make.

321
00:24:37,160 --> 00:24:38,600
You think I do regret my life?

322
00:24:40,080 --> 00:24:41,920
I wouldn't presume to judge.

323
00:24:43,800 --> 00:24:46,840
But I've noticed
the light going out in your eyes.

324
00:24:49,040 --> 00:24:52,320
Your eyes are normally
so full of light...

325
00:24:53,600 --> 00:25:00,160
And that... well, I have noticed
that.

326
00:25:04,800 --> 00:25:08,919
Adultery. That's all it is.
I'm sure you've heard plenty.

327
00:25:08,920 --> 00:25:13,039
Churned up. Messy.
I tell them in the confessional,

328
00:25:13,040 --> 00:25:15,559
"You have committed a terrible sin."

329
00:25:15,560 --> 00:25:18,999
There's some, I can sense, just like
the sex.

330
00:25:19,000 --> 00:25:20,800
And for those, I lay it on thick.

331
00:25:22,320 --> 00:25:24,599
But others,

332
00:25:24,600 --> 00:25:27,400
I sense a deeper conflict
and to those I say...

333
00:25:29,640 --> 00:25:35,679
..."Love is the only gift worth
fighting for."

334
00:25:35,680 --> 00:25:39,599
And this love comes in many forms.
And God's gift,

335
00:25:39,600 --> 00:25:43,120
God's gift,
which he gave to all humanity...

336
00:25:44,720 --> 00:25:48,400
...is that only you know
which love is true.

337
00:25:53,280 --> 00:25:54,679
And then I forgive them

338
00:25:54,680 --> 00:25:58,159
and give them penance as is my right
and duty as a priest.

339
00:25:58,160 --> 00:26:00,000
You think I'm committing adultery?

340
00:26:01,680 --> 00:26:03,759
You were married to God

341
00:26:03,760 --> 00:26:06,439
and now you're looking elsewhere.

342
00:26:06,440 --> 00:26:08,560
You're risking sin, but...

343
00:26:10,040 --> 00:26:11,880
...sins can get forgiven.

344
00:26:17,920 --> 00:26:19,640
W-would you give all this up?

345
00:26:22,320 --> 00:26:24,439
What would you give up?

346
00:26:24,440 --> 00:26:27,519
A position, a trust,
perhaps, a wage, but

347
00:26:27,520 --> 00:26:29,479
these are just trinkets

348
00:26:29,480 --> 00:26:32,239
and support mechanisms in life's
great journey.

349
00:26:32,240 --> 00:26:34,959
They aren't an answer to anything.

350
00:26:34,960 --> 00:26:36,999
You would not give up God's love

351
00:26:37,000 --> 00:26:39,600
and God would not give up on
loving you.

352
00:26:40,920 --> 00:26:43,520
And those around you,
the true ones...

353
00:26:44,680 --> 00:26:48,039
...and I would hope
to include myself in this number,

354
00:26:48,040 --> 00:26:50,360
they would not stop loving
you either.

355
00:26:52,200 --> 00:26:56,239
A dog collar, David,
isn't the reason I do good things.

356
00:26:56,240 --> 00:26:58,400
And it isn't the reason you do.

357
00:27:03,720 --> 00:27:05,319
There we go.

358
00:27:05,320 --> 00:27:08,919
That's all I have. Your turn, now.

359
00:27:08,920 --> 00:27:11,199
Hail Marys, etc,

360
00:27:11,200 --> 00:27:12,839
give me my penance.

361
00:27:12,840 --> 00:27:14,960
Let's keep the pretence up.

362
00:27:16,960 --> 00:27:18,600
She turned me down, Francis.

363
00:27:22,360 --> 00:27:25,159
She's gone back to The Womack.
Back to where she wants to be.

364
00:27:25,160 --> 00:27:26,520
Ah...

365
00:27:28,960 --> 00:27:33,360
No... No. She's back.

366
00:27:34,720 --> 00:27:36,839
If no-one's told you -

367
00:27:36,840 --> 00:27:39,320
she's left the convent. Again.

368
00:27:40,760 --> 00:27:43,719
You were quite right in your
diagnosis of her.

369
00:27:43,720 --> 00:27:45,960
She is enormously flighty.

370
00:28:01,840 --> 00:28:05,360
MUFFLED CHATTER

371
00:28:11,800 --> 00:28:14,719
MUSIC PLAYS: Step it Up
by Stereo MC's

372
00:28:14,720 --> 00:28:16,200
? To the left, to the right

373
00:28:17,280 --> 00:28:20,320
? Step it up, step it up
It's all right

374
00:28:21,560 --> 00:28:24,280
? To the left, to the right

375
00:28:25,360 --> 00:28:28,999
? Check the new ride out,
it's all right

376
00:28:29,000 --> 00:28:30,920
? Silence ain't in season

377
00:28:33,000 --> 00:28:34,880
? Cos there ain't no good in grief

378
00:28:37,000 --> 00:28:39,160
? Can't stop my mouth from breathin'

379
00:28:40,960 --> 00:28:43,120
{\an8}? Or seeing what I see... ?

380
00:29:21,280 --> 00:29:22,439
It's on you now.

381
00:29:22,440 --> 00:29:23,560
What's on me?

382
00:29:32,560 --> 00:29:33,800
And I love you, too.

383
00:29:36,400 --> 00:29:39,760
I think I've missed something.
What have I missed?

384
00:30:03,800 --> 00:30:05,000
Jump in, mate.

385
00:30:24,880 --> 00:30:26,120
I'm OK, thank you.

386
00:30:38,960 --> 00:30:40,519
Looks nice.

387
00:30:40,520 --> 00:30:43,079
Can I bring some more things from
home? Make it...

388
00:30:43,080 --> 00:30:45,919
You're welcome any time.
You know that.

389
00:30:45,920 --> 00:30:48,599
But now your father
and I need to go.

390
00:30:48,600 --> 00:30:54,079
Stay. Let me make us all some food.
I'd like that.

391
00:30:54,080 --> 00:30:55,759
You'd like it?

392
00:30:55,760 --> 00:31:00,959
I'm not angry with you, Mum.
None of this was your fault.

393
00:31:00,960 --> 00:31:04,319
I can't remember ever claiming
it was.

394
00:31:04,320 --> 00:31:07,520
And I-I think I'm excited, Mum.

395
00:31:09,080 --> 00:31:11,080
It's OK to be scared, too.

396
00:31:14,200 --> 00:31:17,239
I thought you'd be going after him.

397
00:31:17,240 --> 00:31:22,679
No... No, he, uh, he... he's not
right. He's, uh,

398
00:31:22,680 --> 00:31:24,599
he's not ready.

399
00:31:24,600 --> 00:31:28,639
But I am still excited about what my
life is going to be now.

400
00:31:28,640 --> 00:31:29,680
OK.

401
00:31:34,680 --> 00:31:35,920
I'm proud of you.

402
00:31:44,160 --> 00:31:45,919
Tarragon chicken?

403
00:31:45,920 --> 00:31:47,080
Sounds lovely.

404
00:31:55,440 --> 00:31:57,120
I don't have anything to say.

405
00:31:59,920 --> 00:32:02,239
No, short is fine but you do
understand,

406
00:32:02,240 --> 00:32:04,599
I can't recognise your marriage.

407
00:32:04,600 --> 00:32:07,399
I applaud what you're doing,
but I'm a priest.

408
00:32:07,400 --> 00:32:09,520
It would be a betrayal
to my congregation.

409
00:32:11,200 --> 00:32:14,920
I could have a go at blessing your
love in some way?

410
00:32:17,160 --> 00:32:19,159
Follow our noses.

411
00:32:19,160 --> 00:32:20,160
KNOCKING

412
00:32:24,720 --> 00:32:28,399
Hello.

413
00:32:28,400 --> 00:32:30,199
Is Muriel here?

414
00:32:30,200 --> 00:32:33,079
Ooh, you look a mess. Yeah, I've
been running. Look, Mu-Muriel,

415
00:32:33,080 --> 00:32:35,559
I need to see her.
Is this him?

416
00:32:35,560 --> 00:32:37,439
Yeah. Him? Who am I?

417
00:32:37,440 --> 00:32:39,919
Erm, this is Anna's mother.

418
00:32:39,920 --> 00:32:41,239
Oh.

419
00:32:41,240 --> 00:32:43,399
Hello, I'm her father.

420
00:32:43,400 --> 00:32:45,999
She's not home.
She went to the shop.

421
00:32:46,000 --> 00:32:47,919
She wanted to cook us all dinner.

422
00:32:47,920 --> 00:32:49,079
We've been painting. Which shops?

423
00:32:49,080 --> 00:32:51,759
Yeah, hold your horses. Why don't
you just wait.... Which shops?

424
00:32:51,760 --> 00:32:53,039
Tesco. Thank you.

425
00:32:53,040 --> 00:32:54,360
It's nice to meet you.

426
00:32:55,640 --> 00:32:58,120
Er, it's very nice to meet you too.

427
00:33:00,120 --> 00:33:01,480
Hope we get to talk more.

428
00:33:04,800 --> 00:33:09,239
? Sweet is Thy work,

429
00:33:09,240 --> 00:33:14,559
? My God, my King

430
00:33:14,560 --> 00:33:18,120
? To praise Thy name...

431
00:33:21,760 --> 00:33:23,839
Hello, everybody.

432
00:33:23,840 --> 00:33:30,799
My name is Francis,
I'm a priest and I believe...

433
00:33:30,800 --> 00:33:33,119
...in love.

434
00:33:33,120 --> 00:33:36,159
FRANCIS: "Two are better than one,

435
00:33:36,160 --> 00:33:39,439
"because they have a good reward
for their toil.

436
00:33:39,440 --> 00:33:43,999
"For if they fall,
one will lift up his fellow.

437
00:33:44,000 --> 00:33:47,039
"But woe to him who is alone when
he falls

438
00:33:47,040 --> 00:33:50,159
"and has not another
to lift him up."

439
00:33:50,160 --> 00:33:53,239
Susan, do you take Simon

440
00:33:53,240 --> 00:33:54,640
to be your beloved?

441
00:33:55,800 --> 00:33:58,840
Will you cherish him and...

442
00:34:00,200 --> 00:34:02,199
Trying to find other adjectives.

443
00:34:02,200 --> 00:34:03,639
AUDIENCE CHUCKLES

444
00:34:03,640 --> 00:34:06,239
Will you make him your home

445
00:34:06,240 --> 00:34:08,839
just as he makes you his?

446
00:34:08,840 --> 00:34:10,999
I will.

447
00:34:11,000 --> 00:34:14,439
Simon, will you do the same?

448
00:34:14,440 --> 00:34:15,440
I will.

449
00:34:18,040 --> 00:34:19,959
Ooh, do you wish to kiss?

450
00:34:19,960 --> 00:34:22,920
You don't have to, if you don't
fancy it.

451
00:34:27,760 --> 00:34:33,799
Good. Well,
I now pronounce you nothing at all.

452
00:34:33,800 --> 00:34:35,199
LAUGHTER

453
00:34:35,200 --> 00:34:38,400
Shall we have a party now?
AUDIENCE: Yay!

454
00:34:42,800 --> 00:34:44,480
A...Anna!

455
00:34:48,280 --> 00:34:52,599
Uh, don't... don't run away,
please. Just let me talk.

456
00:34:52,600 --> 00:34:54,159
I'm, um...

457
00:34:54,160 --> 00:34:56,359
I'm not running
and you can certainly talk.

458
00:34:56,360 --> 00:34:58,559
HE PANTS
OK.

459
00:34:58,560 --> 00:35:02,279
I, erm... I came looking
for you at Muriel's house.

460
00:35:02,280 --> 00:35:04,040
Oh, OK.

461
00:35:05,400 --> 00:35:07,719
I met your mum.

462
00:35:07,720 --> 00:35:08,960
Ah, OK.

463
00:35:15,000 --> 00:35:17,440
I...believe you promised words?

464
00:35:18,480 --> 00:35:19,639
Sorry?

465
00:35:19,640 --> 00:35:22,239
You said you wanted to
talk, etc? Yeah, um...

466
00:35:22,240 --> 00:35:24,560
I-I just... I just want to tell you
that...

467
00:35:29,160 --> 00:35:31,680
I want to tell you that I'm leaving
the priesthood.

468
00:35:37,240 --> 00:35:41,679
Haven't told anyone, yet,
but...

469
00:35:41,680 --> 00:35:44,320
Yeah, I can't remain. I've told Him.

470
00:35:47,800 --> 00:35:50,520
OK. Why?

471
00:35:52,600 --> 00:35:54,360
Because...

472
00:35:57,000 --> 00:35:58,560
It's because I love you.

473
00:36:06,720 --> 00:36:08,040
And why do you love me?

474
00:36:11,200 --> 00:36:13,080
I think...

475
00:36:15,840 --> 00:36:17,480
...I've always loved you.

476
00:36:20,560 --> 00:36:23,240
I think it's just taken me
a while to work that out.

477
00:36:26,600 --> 00:36:27,920
Really sorry about that.

478
00:36:34,440 --> 00:36:35,920
BIRDS CHIRP

479
00:36:42,600 --> 00:36:44,400
Now it's your turn
to say something.

480
00:36:46,400 --> 00:36:47,440
SHE EXHALES

481
00:36:49,520 --> 00:36:50,840
Erm...

482
00:36:53,560 --> 00:36:55,880
Er, let's, let's not talk here.

483
00:37:13,000 --> 00:37:16,079
There was a boy at school. Adam.

484
00:37:16,080 --> 00:37:21,279
He sat behind me in French.
Beautiful brown eyes.

485
00:37:21,280 --> 00:37:22,959
Never said anything to me

486
00:37:22,960 --> 00:37:25,079
but he would sit staring at
the back of my neck all

487
00:37:25,080 --> 00:37:28,120
the way through the class.
I could feel it.

488
00:37:31,240 --> 00:37:32,600
He was probably just bored.

489
00:37:34,240 --> 00:37:35,519
But I did take

490
00:37:35,520 --> 00:37:38,720
to wearing my hair up whenever we
had French lessons.

491
00:37:40,760 --> 00:37:43,639
And then there was
a Benedictine monk,

492
00:37:43,640 --> 00:37:48,919
at Lourdes, when I was a postulant,
called Francois.

493
00:37:48,920 --> 00:37:50,920
Also brown eyes.

494
00:37:53,880 --> 00:37:58,960
I think... they were my
other temptations.

495
00:38:00,440 --> 00:38:02,639
I thought about both
of them probably

496
00:38:02,640 --> 00:38:04,200
a little bit more than I should.

497
00:38:06,120 --> 00:38:11,759
But the... well, the thing is...
the thing is with them I...

498
00:38:11,760 --> 00:38:15,080
...I knew that they were
just... urges.

499
00:38:16,240 --> 00:38:17,240
Horrible word.

500
00:38:18,560 --> 00:38:20,520
Whereas...

501
00:38:22,240 --> 00:38:28,039
Well, whereas you changed my soul.

502
00:38:28,040 --> 00:38:33,679
And I...I just...
I felt so angry that I

503
00:38:33,680 --> 00:38:39,080
didn't make yours change. In the
same way.

504
00:38:42,560 --> 00:38:43,560
But you did.

505
00:38:47,000 --> 00:38:50,239
It was humiliating.
Do you understand me?

506
00:38:50,240 --> 00:38:55,400
Y-you really, really humiliated
me. You really hurt me.

507
00:38:58,440 --> 00:39:00,400
I could... I could hit you.

508
00:39:03,240 --> 00:39:09,000
I wouldn't mind. No. That would be,
be far too easy.

509
00:39:10,320 --> 00:39:13,760
I need to find a better way
to pay you back.

510
00:39:16,920 --> 00:39:18,920
Is this all...

511
00:39:20,400 --> 00:39:22,560
Are you saying I've lost my cha...?

512
00:39:54,840 --> 00:39:56,000
You fuck.

513
00:39:57,640 --> 00:40:02,520
You terrible, insecure,
cowardly fuck.

514
00:40:09,160 --> 00:40:10,160
I hate that word.

515
00:40:14,000 --> 00:40:15,080
Quite like it.

516
00:40:16,320 --> 00:40:17,959
You sound like a maths teacher.

517
00:40:17,960 --> 00:40:20,319
SHE SNORTS
A maths teacher?

518
00:40:20,320 --> 00:40:24,279
Yeah, a maths teacher being
overheard outside of class.

519
00:40:24,280 --> 00:40:25,880
It's a noble profession.

520
00:40:58,080 --> 00:40:59,320
I am a coward.

521
00:41:01,760 --> 00:41:02,920
Sometimes.

522
00:41:08,080 --> 00:41:10,160
I don't know if I'm gonna be good
for you.

523
00:41:11,840 --> 00:41:13,800
I don't know if I'm gonna be good
for you.

524
00:41:15,840 --> 00:41:17,679
I hope you know, I...

525
00:41:17,680 --> 00:41:20,759
I don't have a job.
I don't have a house.

526
00:41:20,760 --> 00:41:23,239
Well, the good thing is,

527
00:41:23,240 --> 00:41:25,520
I don't have any
of those things either.

528
00:41:27,800 --> 00:41:29,000
And I'm an alcoholic.

529
00:41:30,680 --> 00:41:33,040
And I'm perimenopausal.

530
00:41:39,360 --> 00:41:41,879
I think it's OK to say that we're...

531
00:41:41,880 --> 00:41:46,919
...we're both scared here.
Angry, that's just me,

532
00:41:46,920 --> 00:41:50,720
but scared, that's both of us.

533
00:41:53,400 --> 00:41:57,319
Just He... He saved me.

534
00:41:57,320 --> 00:41:59,560
I was lost and He saved me and...

535
00:42:01,440 --> 00:42:02,680
...I don't wanna betray Him.

536
00:42:04,200 --> 00:42:07,600
Well, then, let's decide that it's
not a betrayal.

537
00:42:10,560 --> 00:42:14,599
He saved me too. You know,
I'm just the same.

538
00:42:14,600 --> 00:42:17,280
I'd like to ring a bell and put my
life back how it was, but...

539
00:42:22,080 --> 00:42:24,240
...I'd also really like to
kiss you again.

540
00:43:19,920 --> 00:43:21,120
What?

541
00:43:26,400 --> 00:43:27,600
How do we do this?

542
00:43:34,160 --> 00:43:35,400
You think I know?

543
00:44:26,040 --> 00:44:29,160
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